Thursday, April 21, 2005


So, I just found out that I am a really good actress.
People actually think I am happy. And I tell them that I am. And I am not.
Why am I not happy?
Multiple reasons.
Multiple causes.
It seems everything goes bad at once.
Or everything good happens at the same time.
I think maybe I would like it to be spread out a bit.
But I am in so much pain and nothing I do feels right and nothing I do makes is better. And I don't even make sense.
And I am so tired.

1 comment:

sv4494 said...

My sweet baby sister...maybe you are not the milkman's daugther after all. This "Tears" that you wrote, sounds just like something I have written in my journal's that I keep by my bed. Somehow things always seem to work out.
Next time you start to feel this way think of this:
"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it!"
Something I got from Jalyn "at clips" a LONG time ago.
I love you no matter what is going on in our family.